The Lightness of my Views

Everything from books to art to travel to random views! A melange of my journies!

Friday, February 20, 2015

The Giver ~

Devastation in simplicity. 

Those are the words I was left with as the book finished, and I stayed with it's deeply disturbing aftermath. 

Dystopian Young Adult literature is a whole genre by itself. But to put this book in that category (as publishers are wont to do), would be an injustice. Here is something which can be read (with increasing disquiet) by any adult. And more one thinks about it, more one uncovers layers. 

Here is an utopian world, where there is order, safety, serenity. Everybody knows the mission of their life, the work they will need to do to maintain the equanimity of a society obsessed with balance. But hidden within this serenity, there is also the raw truth of the price man pays to get these. The grey tones, the regimentation and the ruthlessness, which accompanies the intrinsic nature of this society. 

And then there is one boy, Jonas, a Receiver, who is chosen to be the one who will receive all memories, without bar, of myriad generations of people from a Giver, who is himself one of a line of people who continue to be the repository of all possible memories. 

The inflection point comes when Jonas learns of a world which has passed but of which he knew nothing of - and the changes it wroughts in him. And what he does with the truths which cripple his very soul.

Recently I had written on the persistence of memory, and the pleasure and pain it can give. The Giver talks about what it would mean if there was no memory, and if a person is suddenly confronted with the accumulation of a hundred generations of it, at the same time. 

On another level, the story talks about the choices we as societies make, easily making severe moral sacrifices for a seemingly larger good. The devastation is in it's normality.

The book juxtaposes plastic happiness with the despairing tenderness of the bond a boy forms for a child; of the despair of knowing but not being able to share; of how eliminating pain is never an answer to achieve happiness; of how loss is as important as love; of how not-knowing is a right of choice and not of compulsion. 

I left the book, deeply unnerved, and looked for every colour I could identify, letting my skin know the warmth of touch and the coldness of a rainy icy day. I let myself get angry, get emotional, get hugged. I might die tonight - but not before I have Received everything life has to Give. 

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green: a meditation

I cried. No shame in saying it - I cried a lot. But I laughed a lot too. And hugged whoever was around me, as I read it. And strangely, even as I smiled, I often found my eyes moist, and a lump which I couldn't swallow.

Love in the time of Death. 

The inevitability never lessens the pain. And the wonder never ceases, of people who find Zen as night starts to fall. And love, however brief, can still be an 'infinite forever'. And 'some infinities are bigger than other infinities'.

And when you start to see yourself die, and find the world of everyone you love start to revolve around your existence, and you feel guilty for being a 'grenade' which would inevitably explode and fill everyone near you with shrapnel. And you resist falling in love, for you don't want to hurt someone so. But life and death and love still manage to take their own blighted route. 

And as grief falls on you like petals afloat in spring, you realize it changes you less than it reveals you. And it makes generosity second nature, even as it reveals how 'pain demands to be felt'. 

And you understand that heaven is here, just where you are, as every breath brings you closer to closure: 'an elegant universe in ceaseless motion, teeming with ruined ruins and screaming children'.

And you think, as your life starts to break down - when was my last good kiss, when did I recite a poem, when did I hold a hand, when did I feel the petals of a flower against my cheek. And you realize that, even as you scream and shout through your breathing moments to have the universe notice you, all that mattered really was to notice the universe. 

And how you just need to tread lightly on this earth, maybe touch just a few lives, maybe live deeply and not widely, maybe see fewer things but see them with attention, and though 'you don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world', you do get your say in who hurts you. And in that choice you revel, in having loved and being loved.

Chicago in the sun ~

It's official. Chicago is giving a close run to San Francisco for the status of numero uno city of USA, in my list. Particularly when the sun is out. 

Of course, there are huge differences. Whilst San Francisco is a soft, artistic, almost feminine city, in it's grace, generosity and beauty, Chicago is hard as nails, it's steel, it's practical, it's pragmatic, risk-prone and brave. Even it's pulchritude breaks moulds. 

But both the cities revel in the pride of their characters. You only need to meet and talk with the people to discover that.

Chicago has so many things going for it. For if it is not the gorgeous lake-front which gets you, then it has to be the architecture, and if that's not your thing, then the art, and if even that is not your thing, then the theatre, the friendly people, the randomly strewn sculptures and installations at the turn of a corner, and the spirit of a people who refuse to play by the book.

In a random order, over three days I encountered Monet, Chagall, Frank Lloyd Wright, Gehry, Anish Kapoor, Picasso, Sargeant, Renoir, Seurat, Dayanita Singh - only to mention a few; saw places touched by Martin Luther King, Capote, Bugsy, Obama, Swamy Vivekananda; was enchanted by Rogers & Hammerstein and Willie Dixon. And that was just scratching the surface. 

Apart from what a city offers, is what it's citizenry is. On the streets, in the driving seat in a cab, at a ticket counter, in a drawing room, at the hotel reception desk, whilst sharing a meal, whilst showing the city around, across a meeting table. One may not get intimate views, but one does get the pulse. And Chicago might well be under snow and inundated with freezing winds, but beneath it's cold facade is a warm and warming heart. 

A summer-clothed beautiful American family stopped to offer help as we stood helplessly wondering how to go from A to B. A cab driver denied himself a bigger fare by guiding us to a closer metro station. A bus driver helped us all the way into a terminal with our seven pieces of luggage. A shop keeper guided us to a better bargain. 

Is all of this normal for USA? Or is it more so in Chicago. I don't know. Maybe it was the long Memorial Day weekend which did it, for the holiday mood was everywhere. But what I do know is that there is a far greater swirl of happy black, white and brown on the streets here, than I've seen in other cities in this country. 

We traversed through the length and breadth of Chicago, the stadiums, the university areas, the taverns and pubs and restaurants, and the tony tree-lined avenues where the president of USA stays when he comes over, and the boulevards, and the sky-shattering buildings which came up literally over ashes of a burnt city, the areas where Jews stayed, where the Chinese worked, where the blacks congregated, and the gangs fought. But what permeated throughout was the iconoclastic story of this city and the brave imagination of it's people. 

Chicago has been random in it's usage of genius. It has used a street for an airstrip, has made possible a river to flow opposite to it's natural flow, has given the world it's first skyscraper, has rebuilt a whole city burnt to the ashes in three years, has given air rights to builders to build where they wanted, has given the world some world-class gang-wars (!), has given architects the creative freedom to create history. And so many other things which I dont remember now. 

As I stood in Millennium Park, gazing up at my convoluted happy face in the reflecting steel of the enigmatic and absolutely fascinating Cloud Gate made by Anish Kapoor, I caught a bit of the spirit of this terrific city - made of steel, but with enough heart to show you, not only as yourself, but also you in your most mordant way: as you go below the Bean (as the locals call Cloud Gate), and see yourself, you can't see where your reflection ends and where the sky begins.

A city which can use art to show human nature is a city of worth.

Gone Girl ~

Here's the book you have to read, if it's the only book you will read this year. A searing treatise on marriage in the guise of a thriller, Gone Girl is guaranteed to twist your brain - and make you feel guilty, along with the guilty pleasure of reading something totally unputdownable. 

A wife disappears. Everything points towards murder. The husband is the prime suspect. And that's just the beginning. Things unfold from the perspectives of both of them. And you can't believe anything in this insane story. 

The book's ingenuity doesn't only lie in it's mad twist, it's cutting humor or it's uncanny unpredictability, but in it's plunge into the darkness of what marriages can become. It's written with feeling, and documents with searing insight into how relationships reach their acmes, before they start to plunge. 

The elation of the first flush of love, the early ethereality of marriage, the feeling that nothing can go wrong with love and life, slowly melting into realizations of how we all carry the baggage of our pasts, our proclivities, our blood, into every relationship - and how that puts everything into a spin, and often gets us to act in ways totally out of our own control. 

Outstanding prose delves, cuts, and reveals what makes us fall in love, the expectations, the exploration -  and then the disintegration and the disillusionment of truths which burden us more than lies. 
And then the book talks about truths - about how lies are truths and truths are lies, if only you know how to view them. As the book spins it's tale, we realize we can't believe anything or anyone, and even as things become extreme, the stark truth of what our needs make us do, sinks in. As also the realization that whilst we are often victims, we very often make ourselves our own victims. 

Cautionary tale for the married? A forewarning for the about-to-be married? Relief for the unmarried? However you see it, you will want to plunge back into this terrifically written book the moment you finish reading it. 

The Desert Festival in Jaisalmer ~

Camels immaculately dressed, knowing it, and standing with their noses in the air, supercilious in their knowledge of what we mortals have no idea about. And their riders, with moustaches which covered cheeks in florid designs, the final masculine symbol somehow making them look effeminate. And the sand lying strewn on the stadium. And a blue and white tamboo across the length of the stadium. And villagers and foreigners and tourists basking in the sun, the cool breeze fiddling hair and cooling heated brows. 

The beautiful Desert Festival of Jaisalmer, which we just stumbled into, out of sheer luck. 

And what we had in front of us was a fun localized version of everything! First an obstacle race (locals who started out in kuttchas, first putting on dhotis, then turbans, than putting harnesses on camels and then racing to the finish line on their camels!), then tug-o-wars (locals - men and women - vs foreigners which the latter were winning for the last many years!), followed by the matka race, where ladies ran 50 meters, picked up earthen matkas full of water, put them on their heads and ran all the way to the finish line, which was another 50 meters away. The fun was when matkas broke half way, and the women got drenched or cracked open even as they picked up the pots!!

And then the funny fun of a camel polo match and a camel race!! 

The polo was a five-a-side, and in two parts of ten minutes each. There were referees, linesmen, goalkeepers, et al. Sounds serious? Ah, but you had to be there to see what a riot it was. These serious looking, luxuriously-mustachioed ten men with long polo sticks swung it all around, almost never ever getting to hit the ball. But they did hit the reedy feet of many camels, who obviously got angry and ran to sides opposite to where the players wanted them to. And then the ball got hit all over by the camels themselves, and one goal was scored exactly that-a-away! 

And this was only to set the mood for the three camel races, which were the grand finale! And here was where the camels decided to show men who was the boss. So, as soon as the gong sounded, two camels ran to the right of the race course towards the stands, one ran towards the back gate, obviously wanting to go back home quickly, another refused to start,   one took off straight into the track - a perfect start. Now the two running towards the stands created total panic amidst the onlookers, and the BSF guards in front of the stands ran helter-skelter to save themselves from camels gone crazy!! And then one camel ran right next to the stands, weaved itself between parked cars and reached the finishing line - but from the opposite end!!  

The feel and atmosphere was totally dehati, except that the local voices all around mixed with French, German, Spanish, Japanese, English and sundry languages and accents. And it was langrous and disorganized and sleepy and fun. And like much else in our nation, it could be construed as a test of patience or a waste of time or the acme of poor planning. But the truly evolved know that this was the way to dusty nirvana: we don't have spaces between action. We have spaces to revel in, disturbed only by sporadic action. Rest of the time is for contemplation of ones atmosphere, the special feel of a place which is sandy, and brimming with a strange character of relaxed hurry. 

In the evening there was the culture-vulture program, with a French woman singing a terrible local folk song, a Bombay comedian cracking jokes on the local collector, a host who was choc-a-bloc with Urdu shayiri, and a small kid in the audience who danced to shenai-vadaan. And all of this, as the near-full moon and the stars like bulbs smiled benevolently down at us, and the sand dunes somewhere nearby sent cold messages! Oh god, I lobe my country to total siyapaan!! 

The next day was the grand finale. The day when culture went into the dunes - and (we hoped) didn't die a dusty death!!

It was exciting to ride into Sam dunes, as the vegetation all around was sparse, though mum could identify sangari trees and kair bushes, and the rest were all babool bushes and the like which camels eat as their staple food, though they're full of thorns. We stopped at Kuldhara village, which is one of the 87 abandoned villages in Jaisalmer district. The story goes that a corrupt (and horny, I might add) vazir, who enjoyed a new girl every night, fell for a nubile Brahmin girl. Her father knew the dire consequences of a choice, either way, and asked for time from the vazir. A 'niet' from the father meant sure death for the family, and a 'yes' would put the poor girl's life into perpetual misery. As a consequence, the elders of all the villages having this strain of Brahmins decided to abandon their villages overnight, leaving everything behind, barring the bare necessities. And till date, these villages lie abandoned. 

The place had nothing but broken huts, cow sheds, and a partially restored temple. But there was a certain poignancy to see this large area of destroyed and broken houses, lying like carcasses in the desert air. 

Sam is a village, but has got known because it forms the spot from where you can take camel rides into the dunes. It was also the spot where the last day of the festival was going to wind up. 

The road through the village is strewn with camels and their owners hustling tourists for their bucks for real and illusory rides. We took a camel cart for a ride upto the place where the evening program was gonna take place. He promised a half-hour ride, and took money in advance. Ten minutes to the place and he asked us to get down. We protested and refused to get off. A major fight ensued, and we held our guns. He had to give us a ride over the dunes for another 20 minutes. At the end of it, he comes and asked us for a tip! The sheer cheek. 

But it was easy to forget everything, as we entered the spirit of the place. There were large bright kites flying and there were people taking camel rides all over the undulating dunes which stretched as far as the eyes could go. There were the ubiquitous tea stalls, and pakoda kiosks and cold drinks and cute little toilets made out of cloth, right in the middle of the desert. The stage was at a height, atop one of the higher dunes, and in front were large sheets laid out for people to just come and sit down and enjoy the show. 

It was, yet again, a village fair, and it was as full of locals as there were Indian and foreign tourists. And it was more crowded than the previous days functions - definitely 7000 or more people. The programme started bang on time. And the ethereal part of the experience was that across the stage, behind the audience, the sun set in a glorious orange orb, and as it set, right behind the stage rose a silver huge moon, unencumbered with clouds, and forming a shimmering background to all the music and dance being preformed on the stage. It was sublime. 

The programming was seamless, and the artistes chosen with care and variety. There were maand performances, kalbelia and fusion dances, gorgeous solo stints on local instruments, contortionists who did amazing stunts with glasses, spinning wheels and pots, artistes who danced and played with cymbals which were attached all along their legs. Their were singers who sang local satires and transvestites who danced with Japanese partners!! The final dance was a Krishna-Radha Ras Leela, which ended with a Holi of flowers and a humdinger display in the skies of fireworks, which lit up the night - and the way across to the dunes, back to our cars. 

A heart-warming climax to two days of revelry which both  bemused and exasperated us, but also provided hours of sheer enjoyment and joy. 

Recommended? Highly. Caveats? Oh yes. Go, knowing it's a village fair, with organization to match, but capable of reaching great heights. And you will come back happy! 

The Signature of All Things: a tribute ~

(The Signature of All Things is a new book from Elizabeth Gilbert (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86x-u-tz0MA&feature=youtube_gdata_player). It's an elegant, exciting and deeply compassionate tale of a determined young girl, at the turn of the 19th century, as she tries to discover the beginnings of all things inside the mysteries of botany. Instead she finds the meaning of life in the love of a man, who, in turn, throws her life into tumult as he finds the signature of all things elsewhere.

This poem is a freewheeling tribute to it's redoubtable heroine.)

She asked -
Why it is difficult being oneself?
To live within ones skin,
To desire a man within oneself,
To be selfish, brilliant and in love,
To find a world within ones heart 
And then despair to find it is too large?
She asked -
Can't I be less beautiful than my sister 
And more talented?
Can't I be a daughter whose blood 
Revels in the restlessness of an idea?
Who finds universes within 
The whorls of a leaf, 
And joy in the slow awakening
Of a petal?
She said -
It's good to be stoic,
But strong winds break backs:
Why did I fall in love 
And watch my love 
Fall in love elsewhere?
And then fall in love again,
Be in love 
And not be fucked?
She asked -
Can self centeredness 
Have redemption?
Can love find it's end 
As a tribute to life?
Or is love a transient companion,
Lesser than ego, larger than life?
She asked -
Can I find peace 
In finding my life's work 
In the work of others? 
Maybe.
Simply because I know      
The signature of all things
Lies not in finalities,
But in knowing what's incomplete,
And in revelling in it's 
Beautiful ambiguities 
And sudden revelations ~

Amrita Sher-Gill ~

Sadness in the eyes. Sadness in the way they looked. Sadness in which they congregated. Nude without recrimination or shyness, but the eyes hiding what their bodies did not. Even she looked into me with eyes which questioned, poised as she was, in the midst of her creation. 

Was pain her first and last companion? The love she gave, the first and last symbol of the pain she carried inside of her? But why? She had the world at her feet, lovers who also loved her. Were those who seeked her closeness claustrophobic to her? Was that village lady, in a siesta, with her legs askance, almost in rebellion, actually Amrita? And was every person she took inside of her, merely her attempt for them to read the words etched inside her heart of what she were searching for, but never found. 

When someone has everything, often the only wealth she seeks is what could fill the emptiness inside. 

(On seeking the world of Amrita Sher-Gill in NGMA, New Delhi on 2nd February, 2014)